Personal blog of Yuuiki.
May be filled with random crap. musings, daily life, gaming.
Loves: Gackt, Kalafina, Jessie J, gaming, spicy stuff.
Dislikes: Sweets, stupidity
I'm standing at the door and this is how my room looks like from there. Though the cupboards and cabinet on the left can't be seen from that angle.
So this is just behind the door (part where it's not visible in the first photo) If you click on the thumbnail to enlarge the photo, you can see what each box there is for lool.
My work/play area. I need a bigger desk... and sitting on the floor isn't good for my back I guess xD But I love sitting on floors. Need to find space to leave my tablet out, maybe gonna move the printer somewhere hmm. The present Flo-rida gave me is next to the monitor~ and a newly bought Cooler Master notebook cooler.
A closeup on the tower. I changed the fan... so now it's all colorful and stuff lol! Cassie says hi from the top :D
From top: Gackt's Platinum Box VII on the left and Platinum Box V on the right. The clock there goes anti-clockwise. Red thingy there is the PSP and some earphones there next to it. Then we have books, mostly fiction and 2 volumes of Claymore manga on the right. That furry thing is made of kangaroo skin. Second slot are all mangas. Yaoi on the left LOL but mostly censored. Regret getting them. Some mangas are by local artists, some from Japan. And a box of batteries. Last slot consists of DVDs... mostly anime, a couple of films.
My PS2 area... look at the games. I dunno how it got to that amount >____>; and an old DVD player. Sadly the PS3 isn't in my room, connected to the LCD downstairs. The brown-ish door there leads to the bathroom.
Some of my artbooks. My favorite in the bunch is probably Jingna's photobook "Something Beautiful" Ouh and that fan there is from Bon Odori. Heise's artbooks, print and poster = love.
The Gackt-related books and magazines. From left: Subarashiji Kana Jinsei 3, Fuurin Kazan photobook (Dragon Incarnated), Oricon Style 2nd row from left: UV mag (Kirito on the front cover) Gackt was in a couple pages. Diabolos tour documentary (I can't read anything inside LOL) and Fool's Mate. Couldn't get too many books cause they're expensive. (like the magazines that cost RM70+ and photobooks ranging from RM130-240)
All Gackt-related singles, albums, concert DVDs and movie. From left-down: Malice Mizer's... older concert DVD. Crecent album, Moon (1st press edition) and Mars (also 1st press) 2nd row: Vanilla (1st press), Juunigatsu no Love song (chinese), Jesus single, Returner (CD+DVD). 3rd row: No Ni Saku Hana No You Ni (CD+DVD single), Moon Child (movie), RnR concert DVD. 4th row: Jougen no Tsuki concert, Sixth Day Seventh Night concert. 5th row: Kagen no Tsuki concert, Drug Party concert and Diabolos concert.
So broke xD Darn you Gackt fandom!
So that's pretty much what my room looks like and the stuff inside it. I have 2 beds moohaha! Gonna miss it when I go to Penang for studies ;_;
I'll just post some of the pics of Bon Odori in Penang. Quite a number of photos were deleted... Maybe my dad accidentally deleted them =/ Oh wells. I'm gonna be the photographer next year.
Lol this kid was funny. She became a celeb on that day. Everyone taking photos of her.
I had one of these bottled drinks. Kinda cute but RM4 for a bottle is expensive.
Crowded food stalls.
Goldfish scooping xDD
I want one D:
The t-shirt which I didn't manage to get. ><;
It was wayyy crowded but still pretty good. Gonna go again next year!
Thanks to Karyn for downloading AIM, I can finally see how iChat works firsthand instead of looking at the screenshots or from TV shows and stuff lol.
I never knew Danny Choo was Jimmy Choo's son! Only found out today. For those who don't know who Danny Choo is, visit his popular site @ dannychoo.com He posts a lot of cool stuff :]
On the other hand, the Mac OS seems to be easier to get used to than I thought. It's handy, and stable. So far I have experience lag or crashes compared to what I get on Windows OS. I might stick to it o.o But sadly most people I know uses Windows because well... you can get a cracked version for 6 bucks and an original OS costs around 300? Though I'm gonna get an original Windows OS to install on this laptop too when I have enough cash lol. But I need external HDD too, gawd someone donate a 500GB one to me please? >.<
Wonder if I should be using Safari or Firefox hrm...
Ahhh enough blogging, it's 1.45am *-* The weather is so cool that I'm wearing a jacket with the fan on. Seems like my poor A/C can get some rest tonight.
Gonna pick up my desktop tomorrow morning. They'd better be done with the fan issue so I can get back to my gaming and ADVANCE talk to Ley.
On the 7th I'll be moving to Penang, for 3 years. Yay for studies /sarcasm. Well get it over with and start working. For these 3 coming years, my parents are gonna have to pay their asses off for my tuition fees. I feel kinda bad lol.
My dad found out that my desktop's back fan wasn't moving last night, forced me to turn it off. This morning I opened the casing and found out that the fan wasn't plugged into the board. I found where it's supposed to go but apparently there's no 'head' to plug it in. SOOO I gotta bring it to the shop again to replace the head to connect the fan to the PSU. My motherboard has solid capacitor, I don't really find the point in the back fan but my dad insisted so... whatever lol.
He's afraid it might go boom boom pow. Can't play GE on that main desktop for a couple days meh. Maybe I can on it for awhile in the OLD 1.8GHz desktop LOL. But it has a pretty decent GFX so no worries in running the game. I should really get a wireless router so I can bring my Macbook around the house XD But nvm, I don't wanna ask my dad for unnecessary stuff for quite some time. Just plug it with an ethernet cable :]
How sad I didn't manage to go Kampar again D: But I SHALL! *has to save from allowance when college starts* Can't ask my dad for it >.<; Eat less! use less!! My new motto for 3 years until I can make my own money.
I loved that cool little card inside that says "Designed by Apple in California"
Turning it on! Ouh there's a layer of keyboard protector on the keyboard so it's a little blur-ish. Backlighting is so damn awesome.
Screen looks amazing *-*
Go green with Switch! (got this bag for free after purchasing the Macbook Pro)
I also got a large helping of apple pie. .... I joke xD It's actually the packaging for the keyboard protector! Damn thing is RM59 O_O But I got a sleeve case+protector for around RM89 or so, promo price :D Went all the way to Penang to get it ><; But it's pretty damn worth the price tag. Now I just gotta set up some photoshop, torrents, media files on it and it's ready to go!
Just got my PC back after the motherboard failed on me. Cost like RM240 for the repairs ><; Ordered a 13" Macbook Pro since they ran out of stock. So I'm just waiting for a phone call to pick it up. Hopefully it'll be within the week :D Can't wait can't wait! The Bon Odori post will just have to wait. A lot of pictures are gone. But I've managed to get a video clip so I'll consider uploading it on Youtube.
Sooooo I'm not gonna update about Bon Odori in this 100th post. Instead it'll be a semi-rant thingy.
The main PC I'm using has been acting up lately... but it's gotten worse! Since I came back from the Bon Odori, it has issues of shutting down during boot up. I can't start the PC in normal mode. It runs in safe mode though. I brought it to the PC shop and of course like any other shop they'd say it's a virus. Though, I was thinking that it wasn't my system's problem. (I thought it was a hardware problem)...
Meh so it's still not fixed after they formatted my comp. Bye bye C drive >_>; Ugh I wonder how long they'll take to figure it out. They should try checking the wires, PSU, processor and my hard disk. Only these couple things will cause the PC to be unable to start up if it's not a system problem. Or there's also a possibility that one of the RAM is failing on me. I need to redownload Granado Espada... over 4GB dammit. Oh well fuck it. As long as it's fixed I'm ok. At least I have another PC, a PS2, PS3 to keep me entertained for the moment.
Lol I swear stop abusing me. *might be unconsciously abusing self* in this past week, my left knee got hurt, it was bleeding... Then a couple days later I accidentally bumped my right hand into the cupboard, peeling the skin off. Then I knocked my left hand against the table, twisted it a little (ACCIDENTALLY I SWEAR). Just now I was scratching my leg, mosquito bite, scratched a little too hard now it's bleeding LOL. Pfft I'm gonna buy me some COOL LOOKING bandages. Spongebob ones!
Would you still treat me the same after learning about the truth? Tell me Elise. I don’t want to lose what we have, even though there’s a wall between us. I’m afraid to touch you, to hold you, to kiss you. Restraining myself from hurting you, if you knew… If you knew, what would happen to ‘us’? Would you still tell me you love me? Before accepting your love, I want to tell you the truth.
Lol I cried like hell watching this movie. For real. (And there's an drama adaption of the film too) The movie directed by Norihiro Koizumi starring the Japanese artist and singer Yui. In the movie, she plays the role of Kaoru Amane (雨音 薫 Amane Kaoru), a 16 year old girl who suffers from the rare skin condition xeroderma pigmentosum (XP), a disease that makes the ultraviolet radiation of sunlight potentially lethal to her.
Plot from Wikipedia: Kaoru was suffering from Xeroderma Pigmentosum (XP), an illness, which also might be described as the allergy to the sun, and was not allowed to be exposed to sunlight. She led her lifestyle opposite the normal, sleeping during the day and active at night. The only motivation in her life was singing herself away and doing street lives every night at a square in front of a train station with a guitar in her hand. Outside her room window, she spots a high school boy, standing with a surfboard in his hands. It becomes her routine to watch him and his friends come and go to the ocean every morning, before going to sleep. One day, she introduces herself to him and becomes friends, without letting him know about her illness. Can her feelings and songs reach him? How will he think of her illness if he finds out?
Those familiar with the singer for the song in Bleach might know who YUI is.
I haven't watched the drama series yet, but I liked the song from the Drama. Though I prefer YUI's face over Sawajiri Erika lol. This movie is definitely worth watching. It's touching <33
Met with Shavin and Wan Ling today xD Went for a drink, and snacks lol. Been long since I met Shavin. She's changed quite a bit o_o Got a haircut today too. In the washroom when I came back home xD
From another angle.
That's all for this entry :3 ... I think. Can't remember anything else.
Apparently one of my readers didn't understand parts of the previous post lol... So I'm gonna just put it in a simpler form.
Looking down at the dusty pavements he spoke into the phone and said “I’m sorry.”
The man looked down at the ground while talking on his phone, telling the other party he's sorry.
‘Thank you for the times we had together.’ she replied.
Then the girl (other party) replied that she was thankful for the times they had while they were together, no apologies were needed.
The man she loved is with another woman. It was his happiness she hoped for, nothing much, nothing less. A selfless love.
They never really broke up yet, but he was with another woman. So he had made his choice to stay with her(?). She wasn't mad at him for -cheating- on her. She only wanted him to be happy, no matter who he ends up with. She loved him that much.
If they never met, she would have never knew. How much could one’s sense be aware. One word that brings ecstasy, one word that brings tears to her eyes, one word that rips the heart apart.
To her, if they had never been lovers, she wouldn't know what love is. One simple phrase from him would make her happy, fill her with joy. Or it could make her cry, break her heart. All the experience she received was precious.
Has he finally gotten his love right?
Is the other woman he's withthe one for him?
She hoped for the woman to treat him as she would have. Hold on tight as she would to her teddy bear at night. Give him the love he deserves, because that is how lucky she could get.
She hoped the other woman would treat him as she would have, lovingly and kind. Treasure the relationship they have together. Love him more than he can love her because she's lucky to have him by his side.
This girl had one last thing to do. To tell him she was grateful. She wrote him a love song and recorded it. Sent it to him, wishing he would listen for just one time. It was enough for her.
She wanted to do one more thing for him, to tell him how much she appreciated his affection in the past. So she wrote a song for him and sent it in the form of a disc, hoping that he would take some time to listen to it. Just once would have been enough she thought.
Not knowing what was in the disc, he brought it along with him in the car. With the woman by his side, he played the song. Words conveyed to him were beautiful.
The man took the disc that was sent to him without knowing the contents. And played it in his car, the woman was by his side at that moment. Hearing the song, the lyrics to him were meaningful, filled with the happiness they had together.
He realized he lost what he had found precious. Just that one irreplaceable moment was sufficient.
At that moment he realized that instead of finding real love, he lost his most precious one. Having irreplaceable moments together, it shouldn't have separated them. It should have been enough for them to stay with each other.
Hoping it still wasn’t too late. The other woman was left behind. Going as fast as he could, driving back to beloved whom he shared his cherished moments with.
The man hoped it wasn't too late to go back to her side. He broke up with the woman instantly and drove back to the girl as fast as his car could bring him.
A faint light lit up at the end.
He was caught up in a pretty serious accident and lost consciousness.
Stuck in a dark place, he didn’t know where he was. A world embraced with darkness.
He was in a coma, unable to awake.
The sound of a silent weep. The sound of guilt. The sound of blame. The sound of pain.
But his mind was conscious, he was able to feel the girl, crying softly by his side, he felt the guilt, blame and pain the girl harbored, because he came back for her. If she never wrote the song, he might have never wanted to turn back. He might have realize who his true love was. She blamed herself for his accident.
All was heard when light couldn’t be seen. Be strong beloved, for one day he’ll be back. Karma as it was, as it could be. Whether he would stay in slumber or awake is up to him.
He knew what was going on, but unable to do anything. He hoped for the girl to be strong, and swore he would break out of the coma one day. Could it have been karma? He cheated on her, now he's hoping to be back by her side. Did he deserve it? Is he strong enough to break up or the coma? or he'll remain asleep forever.
She wasn’t able to do anything but wait. And that was what she did for years. Praying for the day, they would be reunited.
Feeling helpless, the girl couldn't do anything. She waited for him to wake. She could have been with someone else after all these years but she didn't. This shows how much she loved him. The girl waited for the man, everyday she prayed that someday he would wake up and they could be reunited again. -------------------------------------------------------- Long ass explanation ==; I suck lol... why does my love stories always have a bad ending XD
Looking down at the dusty pavements he spoke into the phone and said “I’m sorry.”
‘Thank you for the times we had together.’ she replied.
The man she loved is with another woman. It was his happiness she hoped for, nothing much, nothing less. A selfless love.
If they never met, she would have never knew. How much could one’s sense be aware. One word that brings ecstasy, one word that brings tears to her eyes, one word that rips the heart apart.
Has he finally gotten his love right?
She hoped for the woman to treat him as she would have. Hold on tight as she would to her teddy bear at night. Give him the love he deserves, because that is how lucky she could get.
This girl had one last thing to do. To tell him she was grateful. She wrote him a love song and recorded it. Sent it to him, wishing he would listen for just one time. It was enough for her.
Not knowing what was in the disc, he brought it along with him in the car. With the woman by his side, he played the song. Words conveyed to him were beautiful.
He realized he lost what he had found precious. Just that one irreplaceable moment was sufficient.
Hoping it still wasn’t too late. The other woman was left behind. Going as fast as he could, driving back to beloved whom he shared his cherished moments with.
A faint light lit up at the end.
Stuck in a dark place, he didn’t know where he was. A world embraced with darkness.
The sound of a silent weep. The sound of guilt. The sound of blame. The sound of pain.
All was heard when light couldn’t be seen. Be strong beloved, for one day he’ll be back. Karma as it was, as it could be. Whether he would stay in slumber or awake is up to him.
She wasn’t able to do anything but wait. And that was what she did for years. Praying for the day, they would be reunited.
I'm announcing this everywhere, so I can brag about this shit >.>; I COMPLETED RE5 ON VETERAN! WOOOOOOOOO *celebrates* I'm proud cause I SUCK at games like RE.
Yup. It's Gackt's birthday. It's been 5 years since I've been a fan. He never ceases to amaze me <3 Thus this new header is dedicated for my Gackt love~
This is the real PV that took 29 hours straight to film. I absolutely adore this one. Probably one of my favorite ones by him thus far. Beautiful and heartbreaking. The woman in the PV isn't that beautiful compared to all his previous PVs but she definitely has a charm and I'm loving her xD The more I see her, the more charming I find her <3 Another fact is that, she's Asian (I think). All the girls in Gackt's PV are blond chicks, so I'm glad to see an Asian girl. Or at least she has black hair instead of blond xD Gackt seems to be at a loss when she's gone in the PV, he managed to portray it nicely. Maybe that's why he's smoking again lol! (he quit smoking back in 2007 or so). At the end, he looks like he was crying too o_o I can watch it over and over again.
Flower (translation) Unable to return, unable to take it back far too many things lost I caught the unseasonal snow and scattered it towards the sky
The tears you shed are changing to powder snow I just want to touch that whimsical smile
Even if I repeat the sin that won't be forgiven and descend to hell, my body burning it's okay if you're there giving me a smile
If I am reborn, as a flower nestled close to you*
I was just struggling with others, hating them crying in a corner of that time To I without a name, you were merely a too bright flower
The words you left behind grow stronger in my heart Smiling "There's no such thing as a world without tomorrow**..."
The nights I lie awake, alone, come to visit again Even if I'm just waiting for a meaningless ending*** If you're here it's okay, just that alone is okay
If I am reborn, as a flower nestled close to you
Left alone, my tears dry up Uncaringly, the seasons continue to change
Even if I cling to my memories I can't return to that time Repeating my unending sadness
The earth goes on forever, everything is beautiful You closed your eyes and the seasons pass on The sadness won't disappear, even now, but The world I longed for is beginning
At the end of my sadness, I found it at last I held the flower named "you" close Till it makes me helpless, I overflow with love****
If I am reborn, I will be by your side You are the irreplaceable flower
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Okay, a few word games here:
*This is an example of a Japanese sentence merely implying the last word rather than actually saying it. Since the missing word is in the middle of the sentence in English, it might be more correct to translate this as "If I am reborn, (it will be) as a flower nestled close to you"
** He writes "mirai"- future, but sings "asu"- tomorrow
*** He writes "ketsumatsu", which means "conclusion", but sings "owari", which means "end". I don't know what kind of point he's trying to make with that difference... o.o
**** He writes the word "yuku"- "to go on doing something" with a kanji that means "to die". Taking that into account this line could be translated as "I die overflowing with love so great it makes me helpless" Credits: Uranus-sama
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Personal blog of Yuuiki. 
Lol this kid was funny. She became a celeb on that day. Everyone taking photos of her.
I had one of these bottled drinks. Kinda cute but RM4 for a bottle is expensive.
Crowded food stalls.
Goldfish scooping xDD
I want one D:
The t-shirt which I didn't manage to get. ><;
Before opening it.
When the box was opened. This was inside :3
I loved that cool little card inside that says "Designed by Apple in California"
Turning it on! Ouh there's a layer of keyboard protector on the keyboard so it's a little blur-ish.
Screen looks amazing *-*
